I've Got One Hand In My Pocket (and the other one is typing on the keyboard ü)
“I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah.”
“I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm shy but I'm friendly baby.”
It is not, by any means, a new song. In fact, it is sooo ten years ago. Nevertheless, it perfectly captures where I am right now. It succinctly describes the two-fold reality that I find myself in.
“What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five.”
These past few months, I have been constantly traversing two paths, waltzing to and fro, just going with the flow…
…I’m on the tail end of one project, yet at the start of another one (and another one, and another one).
…Celebrating life, while trying to make a living.
…Catching up with kindred souls, but also catching up with work.
…Trying to enjoy where I am right now, yet striving to move toward where I want to be.
It’s funny, that for someone who sees herself as a stable, grounded, and focused individual, I am so comfortable with being so flighty, so caught in the temporary…so in between.
So “un-me.”
But the strange thing is, I feel more myself now than I ever was. More secure with my insecurities and “un-security” than in my previous state of security. More certain with the uncertainty of what is to come.
Perhaps I am a bit unrealistic. Or delusional. Or maybe, I’m really just a fan of the song. But I believe Alanis when she says:
“What it all comes down to, my friends
Is that everything's just fine, fine, fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxicab...”
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